...now i know..."

....

...After all these years of waiting and wanting you to be here with me, for all the nights i kept on dreaming about the place with only you and me, for all the days i thought i have you in my arms, for all of the happiness and loneliness you left behind, i never realize that your already gone, until one day, a day... i wish i never wake up, its the day i finally found the answer for all of the questions about "why?"... no words spoken, no actions to be taken... no need... its enough! i had enough!

...now i know...

...Atleast for now, i can go on...without any hesitation, without further explanation, i can no longer hold on... so i let go!... im letting you go....

...now i know...

...Why you keep a distance, building up a wall behind ourselves, for all of your excuses, for all of those troubled faces, for your eyes that never look at mine, and for all the words you kept unsaid...

...now i know...

...the reason behind you stop caring, or why you keep on ignoring, and stop communicating... for all of your absences in every gathering, and for all those facade you use on pretending!.. wearing an empty face, a drawing smile, and borrowers eye... seems each time i have you... i wish it was really you that i have...

...now i know...

...maybe you just don't want me to get hurt... or simply because your selfish enough to tell me the truth behind this secret... ill never asked, nor say a word... because right from the start i know my place to you... "a friend.... thats all i am to you..." well then, why do we have to be together after all? im tired... really tired of your selfish game... cause from the start i know i will never win...

...now i know...


from a Picture....


you and her...


that's all....
i guess i should end this nonesense post..
cause! i already give up!!!
on YOU.. on this S**t heart of yours..!

~be happy, atleast just be truly happy...